Magical Moments

Well that most magical of moments finally happened.  I registered for my very last semester of college.  I never thought it would happen.  As I was registering my hands started to shake and I thought I was going to pass out at any moment.

It is hard to explain the rush of emotions.  For the first time ever I want to walk across that stage and show the world I did it.  It is euphoric and terrifying in the same breath.

I have learned so much these four and a half years at school; everything from politics to life in general.  I cried myself to sleep too many times to count and thought about quitting more than that.  My depression hit an all-time low the first class I failed and then bounced around like a ping pong ball on speed.

I try not to think too closely about what comes after school because I want to cry each time.  Will I stay where I am? Will I move to another country? What kind of job?  Am I ready to write hard news stories that will cause controversy?

These questions and more keep me awake at night tossing and turning, wondering if I am ready and what I have to look forward to in my future.  I know things will work out how they are supposed to and I have been blessed to have received an education.

I will miss those close friends that I had most of my classes with.  I am going to miss those teachers that made you want to come to class. They made it fun and engaging.  The lesson was not always on topic, but it was a lesson worth learning for the rest of your life.  I will miss those moments of clarity and acceptance.

Most of all I will miss the security that school brings.  It was a safe place that I could go and learn, or hang out.  It was a place that made me feel welcome and encouraged.  It was a place that taught me to accept others as they are because everyone has something to offer this world.  College was a place that taught me to have an opinion and to fight for that opinion.

College made me grow up and for that I will always be grateful.

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